My affection for her is unseemly. She has become the light which illuminates my dark world. There is no fool like an old fool and I am both old and a fool. I love her in a way I have never experienced before.
She is our pack leader so I must share her with the others. Somehow she understands my heart and makes me feel that I am special. Because I am stone deaf I cannot hear her words, but I know their meaning. I do everything I can to please her. I have even stopped marking in the house because it upset her.
She takes me with her as much as possible. She knows that I am unhappy when left behind. Lately I have begun howling when she leaves without me. Now Ash and Tess howl too. Yesterday we howled in chorus as she walked towards the car. I thought she would be angry but she started laughing and began to howl with us. That made Ash crazy with joy. I’m glad I had a small part in making Ash happy. I still feel bad that I was mean to him when I first moved in. He said what’s done is done. Time to move on and enjoy life. I like Ash.